Notes to My Other Self

I write these notes when I have moments of clarity.

Secretly, I write them to my other self…the self who knows better, but doesn’t do better.

The self who gets overwhelmed yet again (surprise, surprise).

The self who gets jealous of those I should be cheering for.

The self that gets into silly arguments with family.

The self who needs a movie (even a bad one) to get numb.

I unconditionally forgive myself, because, I didn’t know better. I am running old habits that I thought were the best at the time I chose them. Seeing beyond our old habits is difficult. Changing them is even more so.

Had I grown up in a different part of the world with a different family, I might be having to forgive myself for things I consider to be much worse.

Because, I forgive myself unconditionally, I must unconditionally forgive everyone else.

I believe in second chances.

I believe that courageous, vigilant action in every moment will lead to constant clarity.