Living Now Without Fear

What happens when what your fear becomes your life? What happens when you spend your life trying to make sure what you fear doesn’t happen? Can you be free under these circumstances?

I’ve heard many, many people say that they only want enough money to not have to worry about it. So then the journey to acquire money ensues and ‘real living’ is put on hold. Money is given a glamour and a power it does not deserve.

I personally love money. I think it has potential for a lot of things, but that when it is pursued as an end, it actually loses a lot of its potential.

Over the past few months, I’ve started to think about what I would do if we sold the company in a few years and had a lot of money. Would I go back to school and get a phd in entrepreneurship? Would I travel the world? Would I meditate somewhere? Would I start another business?

As I did this thought exercise, I realized that I couldn’t think of anything that would give me more fulfillment than what I have right now. Oddly, when I accepted that I personally couldn’t make my life much better, it actually got richer.

I want my life to be about challenges. Now, I must accept the corollary that life isn’t easy. I don’t need to fanaticize about more challenges and travels to new cultures when I’m traveling the country in an RV talking about and learning about people living to their full potential.

All of this is to say that I love my life….challenges, setbacks, watching Heroes and Small Ville, living, working with, arguing with, and loving the woman of my dreams.

Life doesn’t get any better than now. It’s only taken me twenty-six years to realize that.